Shattered and Scattered

The path which once felt so right, has reached a dead end.

As I watched the soul of a great man die and hear his heart shatter, I feel the pang of pain in mine.

But all I could offer you my dear was tears.

Shedding tears for your pain.

Shedding tears for our memories.

Tears of our once love.

But now it is left with tears of sympathy.

I saw you die over and over again, as you digested those words I said.

You may not have been perfect, but you were the best I ever had.

I had a change of heart. I began loving myself more. 

The pain that you feel hurts me just as much. 

But this was it.

I cannot bear to see you die every time I said no.

Karma, I wonder where it would lead me?

Love, I do not believe in it.

Sin, I have since I started all this.

Fate, I wish you find that rightful happiness in your life. You deserve better.

Hate, people will feel towards me.

Solace, is what I want you to have.

Prayer, I will make each night for god to heal your soul.

No matter how much I type fighting these tears which are blurring my vision, I cannot go back.

Those words you said, "Where was the woman who once loved me when I was crippled in 2009? The woman who took such good care of me and stood by me? Now this woman in front of me, year 2013 is not the woman I used to love dearly."

All I can say now is I am sorry for everything.