Music & Sleeplessness

Another sleepless night spent feeling restless, growing more accustomed to the darkness and loneliness. It almost feels like a different realm, one which drains every last ounce of life left in a soul which knows not how to feel anymore. 

It pains just to think, it exhausts just trying to smile, and it makes everything else fade out when music makes it's presence. 

Don't read too much into the words said, don't think too much about the changes, and just don't let me go.

You're revealing too much which belongs to me. As much as I lose myself whenever we begain to get warm. It is almost frightening, because I do not know what to make of in my thoughts and my feelings.

But I would like to hold on to this warmth you offer, I hope it's safe and I hope I do not misread you. Ending up alone may be a norm in the lives of many, even yours but I would love to be found. At least by someone who will not need me to spell it out.

It's a feeling I wish to break free from, so surround me even if it's in silence because your presence alone soothes this uneasiness. If you ever ask me, I honestly do not know the answer to why I feel the way I do, or do the things I feel.

You've unmasked so much that all that face paint is fading too quickly just like the melting of an ice cube left out in the open. 

Let me remain armoured before others, don't strip me off my clothes, I do not want that naked feel to return.

Being able to just indulge in each other's thoughts are enough for now. At least I do not feel entirely alone even while I am amongst people. 

So please sing me to sleep again on this rainy morning and keep me warm and serene, free from any further thought as the wind caresses my eyelids and hair dance to the air waves.