18th to 21st of September 2015

Having had spend my birthday subtly this year, was the first time I experienced a quiet birthday. For the past 27 birthdays I've had, it always went on with a bang. I always had people around me spend my birthdays with me be it my family, classmates, colleagues or close friends. I was glad that it was a sober night, I was glad that I could reflect off the years I have spent my life and I was content with how the day was turning out for me. ZZ Aniq the unique called me and sang me a birthday song that night, my brothers wished me when the clock struck 12, my parents spent the earlier part of the day with me, and other friends reminded me that it was my birthday. Life changing events today? None. All that changed was the number of candles I might have had on my cake. Perhaps life was changing at an unnoticeable rate. Or perhaps life was waiting for me to make changes to it. I could hardly bat an eyelid that night for soon it was the day after my birthday. I set out early with my youngest. We went boat fishing, enjoyed it as we sat on that rocking boat waiting to double our catch. It was not exactly excellent but it was alright, at least we didnt return home empty handed. I had a fish swim down my tank top, i suffered sun burns, played at a playground in a near by park after dinner and ended the night with tea. Sunday was a long day at work and it ended with me dozing off to sleep at the dinning table after dinner. But it made me long for home to spend time with my family. Monday morning then came with tensed up nerves and an unsettled chest, but that morning went well. The day got even better with the echoe of laughter in my house even while there was much going on in my head. It was this day that i realised i found solace being at home. It was comfortable even if the house was filled with noise pollution for then only would we realise that that is what we call home. It isn't an empty heart that warms the body, mind and soul but one that is filled. Knowing that i would be expecting more than a company of two for supper that night i prepared myself. It was hard for them to keep me at bay when it came to surprises. However it was a great day and evening. It is true that its not who comes first and who comes last in friendships but the ones who stay with you that matters. Celebrating a belated birthday with the psychos filled me to my heart's content. But it made me think of my ohana, we might have only celebrated one birthday together but one thing for sure is no matter where we are or how long we have not met we will still be ohana. I miss them dearly for they still are my great seven giants! As for my psychos, i love them too, to the moon and back for their thoughts that count. They always did their best to be there for me and they were there for me. I couldnt be more grateful to our creator above for having sent me these two groups of people i call my external family. They reminded me that I am responsible for how i want to spend each day and what happiness meant to me. Just having to be around all these lovable people i feel content with my days. And with that i thank them all; my family, my external younger siblings (many other brothers from other parents), my ohana and my psychos for without them i might never have learnt that i too could smile beautifully at the world again. I look forward to brighter tomorrows and positively accept what each day brings me.

Time

Life is time, is meeting people, learning new things, letting go of what no longer is, reminiscing the memories and creating new ones.
It's funny how in a short amount of time many things can happen. But if you come to think of it, you'd realize just how amazing these moments are. Be it when you're angry, upset, or just happy, these emotions just finds its way into that moment. Its what you make out of those emotions that matters. In that moment you could say something hurtful and never take it back. In that moment you could infect another with your smile or laughter. In that moment you could move others with your tears.
Time and moments go together. Without those moments you would not have had time.
Cherish them. Your time. Spend it well without regrets. Because we can never go back in time only forward.