My family portrait

Stop these yelling! Stop kicking the door! Don't break that gate! Drop that death intent! I hate your voices I hate the words that are coming out of your mouth and I hate the loud sound of things flying all over the place and things being kicked everywhere! Stop coming home drunk! Why can't we just be complete and peaceful? Must I only get peace when I die? It hurts, my head is what hurts! My tears won't stop and I can't breathe not anymore! The pain won't stop piercing through my chest everytime I try to get what little air I can! I'm sick and tired of all this violence! Why won't you just let me live?! I don't need this when I come home NO most definitely not from you my family! Help! I just want to drown all these noise in my tears and soak my pillow to sleep! BREATHE!!!!! I need air!